As you know, on Wednesday my weigh in number was not so good. I proclaimed that Thursdays number would have to be better because I am doing everything right. Well guess what happened Thursday morning? I hopped on that scale with all the enthusiasm I could muster and saw the exact same number.
(Dinner: Panko crusted tilapia caesar salad)
Cue the pep-talking and self-preservation. I promised myself this time would be different. That I wouldn’t over-restrict myself only to end up binging. That I wouldn’t weigh myself every day as if that number somehow defined me. That I wouldn’t stop actually living in order to lose 10lbs. But just two weeks in that seems to be exactly where I am headed.
(Onwards and upwards)
So I am checking myself, right here and now, and setting more realistic expectations.
I’m not perfect. I can’t eat 1200 calories a day (or even 1400 for that matter) and be expected to survive, let alone function. I’d rather be curvy and enjoy fro-yo and sprinkles than skinny and pass on cupcakes. I will always strive for a goal and even if it takes me forever to reach it, I will not give up. This is my reality. My normal.
(Dinner at Ping by Charlie Chang: Miso soup, edamame, spicy tuna roll {always wipe off the mayo} and a rainbow roll)
I read so many blogs about women who make it look easy. My hat’s off to you guys. I am just not that person. I think my weight will continue to be a struggle for me but I will not let it define me. It’s so easy to spiral downward into self-loathing when you don’t see a number you want on the scale or your pants are a little too tight. But there is so much more to it than that. I write these things to share but mostly as a reminder to myself. I know what it is to choose to feel good and really believe it. That is what I want to do and who I want to project out into the world. Losing weight is great, it really is. But it is such a small part of the story. I need to keep that in perspective and maintain realistic expectations.
How do you best maintain realistic expectations?
I think you have such a great and refreshing perspective on this. it is never hard to define who you are when the crutch of society makes us define ourselves by our physical appearance. I think though the idea and life of balance will be so much more rewarding for you
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Thank you! I so apprecaite the vote of confidence
I really needed to hear this today!!! Thanks for your inspiration everyday! I like being curvy too! And cupcakes! Xoxo
Don’t despair! I know the feeling. I feel like I’ve been trying to lose “the last five pounds” for over a year now. One thing that really helped me break through the plateau was not really restricting what I was eating in any serious way, but restricting WHEN I was eating it. I try to stay away from starchy carbs after lunch, and that has really helped.
But your sentiment about loving who you are is so true and important. It’s great to see people embrace that! You go girl!
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I’m not so good with restricting, which is why I think Weight Watchers could never work for me. Sighhh. Once of these days we will figure it out!
With my injury and not being able to run, I have really been battling the scale a lot lately, too. It’s been tough to see the numbers climb higher and higher every day and know that my usual go-to’s for trying to end the cycle are currently unavailable. Just keep at it and you will eventually get there. Of course it isn’t fair that there are women around the world that can drop 10 lbs in a few days, or that can eat whatever they want without a second thought, but you will get there and be stronger for the journey you went through on your way there.
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I’m sorry you can’t train right now. I can only imagine how frustrating that is. Hang in there, I know you are going to have an amazing comeback!